Tammy's Nonsense of a Mess

Christian is sick. I am trying to keep my distance. My lipstick fell in the bathroom sink ugh

I’m currently reading Tuesday with morrie. A bit bored. I have no phone reception. Yearbook next period!

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i _ you

Since I want to go see A Rocket Summer, plus Mayday parade, which will equal 32 bucks, I need to sacrifice some things.

No shopping.

No fancy Halloween costume.

No more eating out that much unless it’s called Mcd.

No KC

No more “driving around”

OH GOONESS.

LIFE

I’ve been so annoyed with the people around me lately. I don’t know what it is, it’s everything someone seems to say are just words filling spaces that should not be filled unless it’s something important.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my future and I don’t know what I’m suppose to do with it, and it’s bothering more than ever.

I really would like to live on my own, get out of Iowa, but I’m so scared, but excited living on my own, making my own money. Just moving on already.

I don’t know.

I’m kinda sick of people complaining, when they can solve it easily.

things i would like to mention

1. it’s really hard for me to shop, i’m so picky, mostly on price and style. I went to gordman’s and was returning the mistake of getting a pair of jeggings, and wanted to pick out something else, and end up not even liking anything. There’s this pair of high sock at claires at OV Mall, but i feel like it’s ridiculous to pay 8.50 for socks.

2. Valas was an amazing trip, I had so much fun, that will probably the only time our staff will bond.

3. I’m reading this book. Better Than Running at Night.

I LOVE IT

It’s making me appreciate classical music and artsy people. And it makes me want to do something creative, apparel wise, because I can’t paint.. well. And of course this book would mention gay people, my life is fill with gay kids, not like it’s a problem. And also, this book makes me want to do something really intellectual, the work they put in into their art is insane. I wish I was smart.

4. I don’t have anything plan this weekend other than my shopping, I think I’ll take Kevin because I really don’t want to go alone.

5. I really love this book.

6. That’s all, g’night.

Listening to Tchaikovsky.

Was pretty neat.

Went to the football game, was P.O. at Kevin so when Ariele went to pick me up it was uber upsetting and weird. But then as the night went on, we were cool. The game was so boring, and usually our rival games are crazy, but barely on of their fans were there. Was in the fan section with Air and Kevin, plus Elizabeth. Then went off on my own, talked to Shauna and Julia for a bit, then we left.

Got to taco bell, and ate with Kevin, Tina, Ariele, Elizabeth, Chris, and Matt. And Adam was there and he chugged hot sauce from a silly string cap EWWWW

Then we went to the tennis courts, and Lyndsey came and we drove around.

AND so really good FRIDAY NIGHT.

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always.

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always wanna knock that bitch out who says it wrong!

Julie Hill is just such a difficult name.

Story of my life. 

you mother fuckers have no idea.  no fucking idea.

1. I just realized all I ate for dinner was a TV dinner, and it was disgusting.

2. Today, I got my oil changed ALL BY MYSELF. Well, I went somewhere to get it done. But um, I am trying to do homework and I kinda just gave up. I think after I make some food, I’ll feel better.

3. Me and kevin had some pretty, deep convos today, oh how I love deep convo about f’ed up lives.

4. HMMM, Cody texted me, I don’t know how to feel about that, but I just stopped texting him, he’s annoying, and he has a girlfriend, and she does not deserve that fucking douchebag, he neeeds to just back off of all the nice girls, and grab some hoe’ THAT KID IS DISGUSTING.

5. Also, I’ve been such a bitch lately. OK, i will be nice for 3 days. I will say only nice things. And I feel like this will not last because HS is so frustrating.

6. Grabbing an app tomorrow at this one place.

MMMHM.

I don’t think I’ve ever love someone before.

But there’s this boy I once knew, and I still think about him constantly to this day. And we only met once. For a day. But that moment in my life, I’ve never had stronger feelings for someone in my life. I was so giddy when I was with him, and I’m missing that. I had boyfriends since then, and I never felt the same way I did with that boy. My love life.. is just really pathetic.

And this is not in great details, it actually really vague. .

So, I might be going to the Academy of Arts U. Just thinking, it’s so expensive though. Jeez, I don’t know what to do. I need to take the ACT, get on the scholarships, apply for it. I dread this day.

Also, I keep wanting to clean my room, but I’m so f**kin’ lazy. SO LAZY. And I wanted that idea with my room. 

I’ve been missing taking pictures at shows, it’s really sad. But I might be doing a photoshoot with Shauna and Julia, plus Christian so I WILL BE BACK. I want to invest into a new lens as well.

I NEED A JOB. I really need one bad.

This is just a random mess, which is the purpose of my blog. Which I kinda neglect, but no one ever reads it so it’s okay. It’s almost midnight and I haven’t even started on my homework. OH JEEZ. 

Thursday- Going to see Social Network with Julias and Suana!

Friday- Rival game

Saturday- Haunted Houses mhmmm :)

Right now I have a poster/summary paper to finish, and a test to study for.

But I’ll just do the poster haha.

Listening to : Katy Perry- Peacock

Christian, bff.

I have this cool idea for my wall, lining up photos B&W mainly along the walls.

Plus make a shoe area in my closet. I NEED A BIGGER CLOSET.

I cried during Teen Mom, I don’t know why, maybe it was because it was 2 A.M., and I am just so tired.. but really, it was an emotional episode, it makes you think about how your future will turn out, and if things will be okay even though it’s a mess at the moment.

Tonight was fun, just another FRIDAY NIGHT with my friends, no drama, no annoyance, just trying to have a goodtime

- Football game, Village Inn with Kevin, Liz, Ariele, Sierra.

- Donut Stop, Kevin, Lynds, Ariele

I just had this mad dash of cleaning my room for 10 minutes, and now I’m back to my lazy phase. It was so productive.

I miss my gay BFF so much. I haven’t seen him in 2.. 3 days. He’s sick.

I’m slacking in school, how surprising.

I have money again, but applying for jobs.

And it’s like 3:55 AM, I need sleep. Maybe clean my room tomorrow, go to Chel’s and Lauren’s party. Go home, do homework. Try to find my itouch, edit pictures.

It’s gonna be a chill weekend.